I’ve never been more happier this past week - never in my life have I felt so good about myself even though i’m under a lot of stress. I feel free like a bird. I thought I was gonna relapes this week, but I stayed strong and hung onto hope and I made it through, and I feel even more amazing becuase of it.

For the frist time in my life.. I love my body the way it is. Yes, I have scars but im proud of them because they showed me how much I fought and how I did what i had to to survive. I no longer feel the need to lose weight, wear the ‘lastest fashions’ or wear loads of make up. I’m completely happy the way I am. I have flaws and i’m finally inbracing them. :)

For the first time in my life everything is right. I dont regret my self harm - to be honest it got me through some rough years of my life. In a strange way it gave me something to hold onto, something to keep me moving. I’ll never regret it. The same with my recovery. I still have a long way to go to recover, but it is possible. I’m living proof. I have my bad days when I want to scream and hurt myself, but you hold onto something - anything and you pull through becuase you’re strong.

I now have something I didn’t have 3 months ago.. I turly believe in myself. I see what others see now when I never use to be able to. I have the world a head of me and an amazing future. My self harm will always stay with me for life. It will be a battle to keep myself to hurting myself in the future, but it will remind me of where i’ve came from and how much i’ve gone through.

I see a future for me now with an amazing guy and beautiful friends who will stay by my side no matter what. I no longer see the blackness, but the light finally showing.